Cyndie's Thing

My Baby is 7 Months...

So, 7 months ago Luca was born...and today I could feel his first tooth coming in.  LOL.. can't wait to see it all popped out.  He is so cute!

2009

So how did I spend the first couple of days of 2009?  Well, I didn't do much.  New Years Eve was much like every other year,  it's my mother's birthday and well since she doesn't really like to go out, we stay home either order yummy food, or make something.  This year Los Taquitos won out and we got Fajitas, and Taquitos, Rice and Beans...the works. Kristina and Will left after dinner to go to a Black and White party, Tony played WOW all day and all nght until about 10 min til midnight.  Kim and VInce joined us and we had a long discussion about movies and such, then Carla came at about 11.  We toasted in the New Year, Tony returned to his Questing and became a level 80, he can honestly say he started off the year accomplishing something Luca stayed up till around 2, and then I called it a night.

So, I sit here and dwell on the year to come, and I just hope it is better than last.  Don't want to sound like a downer, but I had the shittiest year...and it's sad that right at this moment, I have no expectations that it will be better.

Goals...I have a few of those...and I really just need to focus on them, and not on the fact that my life sucks...I have school starting up in Feb, and maybe I'll try and get a part time job.  I will try and make myself happy, cos I'm the only one who can.  I try and visualize a future where I don't depend on anyone, where I can find joy in my children and my friends.

Sorry if I don't sound to optimistic about this year...I guess we shall all see. 

God Help us all!

Luca's 5 months pic

I know...crazy...I'm in the mood to update...so here is a 5 months picture of the boy...I still have to take a six month picture...and I also have his first halloween pictures in Random pics...enjoy.  Give me some feedback. 

So cute with a Beanie!

Real cute pictures of Luca with his beanie.  Linda, Aurora's tutor made it for him!


 

Luca Update...it's been a while

Ok...I've had my little pitty party...and now it's back to business...I have not updated family stuff...so here I go...I gotta post Luca's four month old pictures...Isn't he a cutie..hehehe!

I have new pics of him in Random pics...go check them out.

"I'm falling Apart..."

It's been such a hard year for me.  So much has happened, so much has changed...and I'm barely holding on.  I blogged the Lyrics to Lifehouse's "Broken" because it describes how I feel to perfection.  I haven't been very open about everything, I think for the most part, it's just to hard to even discuss this pain.  I don't mean to be distant or even vague, it's just I really don't have it in me to  go over it again.  I do enough of that in my head at night when I am trying to sleep.  So just in case anyone  has wondered why I've been so distant, I think the lyrics say it all.  I have to give a shout out to my God, my king...because even though it's barely, I'm holding on to him, and in his name I find meaning.  I'm not sure why things happen,  not sure I will ever understand, but I'm gonna hold on to him, to my faith.  I will be OK!

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok.

I take my hat off to Lifehouse, those words are so perfect.  So if you are riding around in your car or just sitting around your house with the radio on, and you hear this song...please think of me and send me your thoughts and prayers!  I thank you and love you all very much!

"Broken"

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

A great morning!

It wasn't just another November morning here is Los Angeles...it was a day to celebrate Judy and BJ's birthdays!  I am so lucky to have met these Ladies!!!  It's so wonderful to be able to spend a few hours in the company of people who really care about each other...the food was great, so were the mimosas, but the best part was the great conversations!!!  We must do this more often...Thank you Ladies!

Chrissy came for a visit

Not only did we baptize Luca this last weekend, but my bestest friend came for a visit!  We had a nice time...hanging out, eating great food and doing a lot of stumbling.  I really want to plan a trip to go see her!  She also helped me out a lot with Luca!  Thanks Chris!

Luca is Baptized

My baby boy was Baptized on Sunday...it was such a sweet ceremony.  When it came to the time where the water was poured Luca was sound a sleep and  he didn't even stir!  He was a very good boy in church!
Afterward we came home and had a little party.  Thanks to everyone who came and shared this day with us!